I can’t tell this to any one, but I need to actually say it, so this is the closest I can come, partly because I think if I said it to any one I would be patronized, they would be kind, and then, go away, let it fly to the wind, never to be bothered by it again. The thoughts I am having are constant, my mind is racing all the time, it’s hard to quiet my mind enough to rest. I have to try to put these thoughts somewhere.
I’ve always thought of my self as a seeker of truth, if there is a truth. Is that the truth, that there is no truth? The question of "why are we here" is almost eternal, or was. I think the question, on the whole has died and very few ask it any more. I feel that most people, don’t even know there is a question, out there, somewhere to be answered. Not the ones I meet any way. Are there truly, caring, loving, honest people still in the Earth, who do things for other people for unselfish reasons, just because it’s the right thing to do? I know there are people who help endangered species of animals and birds, out of love alone. Who pick them up and mend their broken wings, teach them to fly again, and set them free, for the pure joy of helping. Is there a selfless love, or has it mostly been lost. Have souls become so separate that they don’t know that they are all part of the whole. Maybe there are so many material possibilities in the world, that people have forgotten the spiritual. I saw a bill board once that said "A man never stands so tall, as when he stoops to help a child"... Guess it made an impression, funny I don’t remember what it was advertising.
Have all the truly good people of the world grouped together in a small town somewhere, or do they hide, so no one can find them, and maybe meet in some unknown, obscure chat room on the internet? Forced to hide what they know from others, because no one listened or cared, or because they gave out of love and others took out of greed, and hunted them down so they could keep taking without giving. Until their love was becoming dry and shriveled, and they feared there would be nothing left to give when it was needed, because they had been sucked dry.
Why don’t people know that not only what they do, but also what they fail to do, directly affects their own spirit, their own being, and therefor the Universe. And If they know, do they no longer believe that it has an effect on the outcome, or do they just not care?
For two months now, especially, I’ve been looking for truly honest, unselfish, kind and loving people. I haven’t found a single one. How dreadfully sad. I have found greed, ego, fear, hatred, anger, uncaring, self involved people who only do things for others if they themselves receive something other than feeling good about themselves, knowing that they have done the right thing, and for no other reason. If they understood who and what they really are, I don’t think it is in them any longer, at least not on a conscious level.
I think the human race, as a whole, may be lost, unredeemable, simply because they do not know where they began, what they are working toward, what true love is, and have lost interest in finding out.
9-15-06
When did this happen, what did I miss, did someone take a poll and find that the majority were corrupt , and majority rules, so now it’s acceptable to do the wrong thing? When did it become right for the strong to victimize the weak, the wealthy to let the poor stave, have no shelter and to be dirty and unclothed? When did it become acceptable for people to be sick or dying because they have no money? When did it become the proper behavior to not get involved, when another person is being harmed? To ignore, or close your mind and your conscience, to walk away and never look back?
When did one spirit become more important than another, and by what measure is that accounting made? When did people walk away from the Light to hide in the darkness? Have they dwelt there so long that it is all they see and know? Has all hope been lost and forgotten?
There was a time on this continent where no one went hungry, extra food and supplies were put in a store house for all to use. No one took more than they needed and gave what they could, so that there would be plenty for all. Land, mountains, rivers, trees, air, and game didn’t belong to any one person, organization, company, or government. It belonged to the Great Spirit, as it does now, as a blessing for their use. One could find a piece of land near a river or stream, build a dwelling, raise crops, animals and their families. They worked with the land, not against it. Life was never easy, but through hard work, love, and faith in the Great Spirit, life was good... They, the indigenous Natives, were and are the most spiritually sound and proud people I have ever known.
What happened to them, where did they go? Europeans came and found "savages" that didn’t speak their language, adhere to their religious beliefs, but prayed consistently, bathed daily, and were not ashamed of their bodies enough to hide them from neck to toe in the heat and sometimes, harsh environment. For this, they were labeled "Heathens", who, at first, welcomed them and were willing to share the blessings that they had been given. The Europeans brought, among other things, Cholera, Small Pox, and Measles. When they found out the land was not owned, they took the land. Those they could not run off, they killed to near genocide. They claimed the land as their own, sectioned it, and sold it to others that were coming. They would not allow the natives of this land to own or purchase any of the land, which was hard for them to understand any way, no one could own land, it didn’t belong to any one. Eventually, those who didn’t die of illness, or for not leaving the land they lived on, were rounded up, forced to walk thousands of miles and put on reservations, a place they could live in peace, for ever, usually with no, or little, water or game, or trees or mountains. Stagnant water, and rancid meats were brought to them, sometimes monthly. If they tried to leave the reservation, to find a better place to live, they were hunted down and killed. Shame On You America!!!! You have Murdered the Spirit of this land!!!
Through Laws of Greed, you have made this a Country of greed. It is Illegal to build a dwelling on an unused parcel of land, raise crops and families. Even granted land is no longer available. I don’t know what the Burrow of Land Management is saving it for. Even if we had free land, its not truly ours, no one can build a dwelling of any kind, even a barn, without, permits, inspectors, contractors, taxes, and more money. Money made and owned by the government. Until recently it was even illegal to own gold or silver. If we aren’t wealthy enough to purchase land, we are not allowed to grow our own food, we must buy it from those who do own land. Many of these people are paid by the government not to grow food because there would be too much and the price would go down, so others would not make enough money to make farming profitable. It has gotten where just survival is of the government, by the government and only for the wealthy. Freedom in this land is now the Illusion of Freedom.
If this Country was run the way it was intended to be run, by the founding fathers of our government, and was run by the Constitution and the Bill of Rights, we would probably still be ok. I would imagine that 1/8th of the citizens of this country have , at one time, read these documents, and that 5% can recite the preamble to the constitution, at least in part and less than that can tell you any thing written in it. What a shame and loss of a truly great attempt of good government. Shame is on the citizens of this country for allowing what has happened, and who now alone, can change nothing. We are accountable, not only for what we as individuals do, but for how we raise our children, how we treat others and alas, what we as a country have done, especially, when we have done nothing. Oh shameful America, Oh, shameful citizens of Earth, What have you done? When was it you became lost, and believed that all hope was gone, and could never be found again? How did you loose your faith, or did you never have it to begin with? Was it not a profitable commodity, there for done away with? Why was it never instilled in you? How desperately sad.
By the time a person reaches adult hood, most people should be able to know right from wrong, have an understanding of ethics, and consciousness, without being taught by any more than living life. Do they truly believe that they are the total sum of what they see in the mirror. What happened to what we use to call simple "humanity". For the most part that seems to be lost too.
A New Hope 3-22-07
There are a handful of people who are uncovering the "ancient text" from many lands. The Egyptian, Esceene, Hopi, Mayan, I Ching and others are being decoded and translated, mathematically figured, and compared. Possibly if this ancient knowledge were to be shared openly with the whole human race, something may awaken within them in time to save them from themselves. If not, well, I suppose the loss will be greater than I hoped, but I’m sure, exactly the way it’s meant to be.
The few that are trying to give the knowledge to all they can reach, are being met with shamefully closed minds and hearts. Unfortunately, these few enlightened teachers have to be turned away by the many to find the few who are also searching. Searching for the long lost answers of who we are, where we came from, why we are here, and where we are going. I truly hope that they are greatly rewarded for their restless effort to share the knowledge they have found with others who are still desperately digging for truth.
I am very grateful to have discovered that there is still a small minority of truly, caring, loving people who are selflessly giving to others what they themselves have received, simply because it is the right thing to do. It is wonderful to know that all will not be lost in the in the vastness of the changes that have happened, are happening now, and that will come. Our Consciousness will survive the evolution of the new cycle.
