Lost and Found 6-15-07

6-16-07

I think that I have always known I was lost. When I was in the 1st grade in school, the teacher wrote on my report card "Does not play well with others", and I didn’t. I didn’t understand why other people behaved the way they did. They did and said things and behaved in a manner that was against my true nature. I wanted them to like me, but they didn’t. I was too young and too inexperienced to understand why. To be in harmony with them, I had to change my vibration. I had to pretend to be what they wanted me to be. I tried to go against my nature, to be something other than what I was, in order to try to feel like I "belonged" somewhere, any where. I thought it would be better than feeling so alone, so separated from everyone and everything. For a while there, I developed several different personalities, so I could be who other people want me to be. Just like a radio, I learned to change the station to a different frequency, a different vibration, in order to be what other people wanted to tune into. I almost forgot who I was.

One day I made a hurried attempt to change the station for someone, but I could not remember which one it was. As I scanned up and down the dial, frantically looking, I suddenly realized what I was doing, and that I hated the game I was playing. I took a break from the game. I disassociated my self from everyone. I spent all my personal time alone, remembering who I was. I sorted out the differences in what I was taught and what I knew to be true. It was a long and hard task, but I found my self again. I wasn’t lost. I was just temporally misplaced. Other people thought I was having a problem, but instead I was finding the answer.

I have raised my consciousness level many times since then. Some small jumps, some big leaps. I then always see things from a new, higher and wider point of view. The increased point of view, gives me more knowledge, and a greater understanding of how things all work together as One. That Understanding raises my vibration, which leads to a higher consciousness and I continue to move forward on my chosen path.

Just knowing that we are all One, is not enough, it’s a really good start, but just knowledge, with out actually being, isn’t enough. I have to actually BE. Oneness, is in the Being, not in the Knowing.